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I'm just tryna do it all at once 
Everybody wanna try to tell me that it's too much 
Ain't nobody gonna laugh when I'm gettin' funds 
And I love my life, so what else should I want, yeah 
Yeah I'm just tryna do it all at once 
Everybody wanna try to tell me that it's too much 
Ain't nobody gonna laugh when I'm gettin' funds 
And I love my life, so what else should I want

I said it’s gonna take some time and the time’s up 
I quit counting on me, myself, and my luck 
I’m getting it together and I’m getting out of dodge 
And I’m making sure my dreams ain’t gon’ be a mirage 
Gotta hustle every moment, breathe in, breathe out 
It ain't gonna fall in place just being devout 
Nah I wonder if they wonder what I’m thinking about 
But it’s all too much, man I should keep it down 
It’s too complicated for their little minds to understand 
Come back in twenty years and you’ll see it was planned 
That's not a threat, it’s a promise, I won’t be reading the comments 
And I ain't ripping off, I’m stealing and paying homage 
I said it back then, man, I’m so gifted 
But all that comes with being so different 
A little insane to be a little unique, yeah 
You know what i mean? 

I'm just tryna do it all at once 
Everybody wanna try to tell me that it's too much 
Ain't nobody gonna laugh when I'm gettin' funds 
And I love my life, so what else should I want, yeah 
Yeah I'm just tryna do it all at once 
Everybody wanna try to tell me that it's too much 
Ain't nobody gonna laugh when I'm gettin' funds 
And I love my life, so what else should I want, yeah 

One breath, one step, one day at a time 
I gotta get on stage, I’m already there in my mind 
I'm gonna have a couple people that I’m leaving behind 
They can’t all come with, they can’t all make the climb 
Yeah, it’s unfortunate but real and I’m hoping that I can deal 
With all the complications arising between every meal 
Man, it’s hard to think straight when all you seem to do is feel 
But I think I’m gonna make and I’m gonna make it real 
“Remember when you wanted to be where you are now!” 
But I didn’t ever want to be here, so just calm down 
Man, I gotta a lot of work on the road ahead 
I sure hope that I can step aside before I’m dead 
But gimme a second to flip and rip it and see just where my head’s at 
I’m learning I don’t gotta be the best at 
Every little part of every plan for a dream 
Cause it’s a long story 
You’ll see what I mean 

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It’s a mess, I’m a mess, and I know that I am 
And I'll walk through the fire if I know the plan 
Man I got the power, I don’t need a hand 
Cause I know what I’m not, and I know what I am 
It’s a mess, I’m a mess, and I know that I am 
And I'll walk through the fire if I know the plan 
Man I got the power, I don’t need a hand 
Cause i know what I’m not, and I know what I am, yeah 

Let me at’em, let me roll, it’s my time to go 
I ain’t stopping till I’ve played my hand, I won’t fold 
But that’s the issue, I been crying “I miss you” 
But I’m tryna misuse, so keep your tissues 
"I ain’t got time to be all safe and sweet" nah 
But what’s it gonna cost to get from A to B? 
Nah the limited omnipotence is make believe 
But if I bought in, why am I not praying to me? (yeah) 
It's kinda crazy when you get right to it 
But I won’t stay down, no I know what I’m doing 
I just get myself placated and then think I went through it 
But I'm goin' in circles, so I’m never really moving 
I’m just throwing paper planes, hoping one of’em will fly 
While I sit in my mind looking up at the sky 
Like "God, won’t you help me get back on my feet?" 
But He don’t wanna talk, He don’t wanna listen to me 

It’s a mess, I’m a mess, and I know that I am 
And I'll walk through the fire if I know the plan 
Man I got the power, I don’t need a hand 
Cause I know what I’m not, and I know what I am 
It’s a mess, I’m a mess, and I know that I am 
And I'll walk through the fire if I know the plan 
Man I got the power, I don’t need a hand 
Cause I know what I’m not, and I know what I am, yeah 

Scaredy cat and I’m scared of that 
With plus ten confidence, I’m moving in parallax 
I got this greatness that inside of me but it’s become apparent that 
I won’t be going anywhere if I’m impaired with that 
Need to have to control and it’s gripping me by my throat 
So I’ll be right there, as soon as it lets me go 
But if it does then I’ll fall, nine point eight straight down 
And I’m concerned that nobody will be waiting for me on the ground 
It’s a setup for a letdown, and I don’t trust the one to claim I love 
So you can see why I’m a mess now 
A little on the nose, it’s on the tip of my tongue 
But every time I wanna jump, nah I just turn back and run 
He said I’m gonna crash if I keep this up, yeah 
Maybe I shouldn’t try to play so tough 
I just need to close my eyes and then take a breath 
I just need to let go and then take a step 

It’s a mess, I’m a mess, and I know that I am 
And I'll walk through the fire if I know the plan 
Man I got the power, I don’t need a hand 
Cause I know what I’m not, and I know what I am 
It’s a mess, I’m a mess, and I know that I am 
And I'll walk through the fire if I know the plan 
Man I got the power, I don’t need a hand 
Cause I know 

It’s a mess, I’m a mess, and I know that I am 
And I'll walk through the fire ‘fore I know the plan 
I don’t got the power, but I got my hands 
And I know that I’m not, and I know I Am 
Yeah it’s a mess, I’m a mess, and I know that I am 
And I'll walk through the fire ‘fore I know the plan 
I don’t got the power, but I got my hands 
And I know that I’m not, and I know I Am 

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I’m chaotic and it’s beautiful, I’m ready to go 
You better fly, butterfly, in the scarlet and snow 
One, two, three, four, I’m getting ready to blow 
Tell your friends I’m heaven-sent and I’mma put on a show 

Calm down, calm down, take a chill pill 
But I can’t, cause I’m the real deal 
I'm the real thing, don't you see? 
No, come to terms with the real me 
I’ll be laughing if you think that you been fooling me 
I ain't gon' cut off a clove just to help someone be cool with me 
Get it if you get it, if I said it then I meant it 
I’m here to play the long game, I ain’t gon' be offended 
If you can’t keep up, cause I been at this for some years 
But I had a couple fears that kept me from switching gears 
That’s just how it goes, I’m bout to counter blows 
Gonna read up and be talkin with that power prose 
Not that A-B-A-B but like "Jesus save me, save me" 
It’s getting so crazy, crazy, take me back to maybe, maybe 

 Is there nowhere a monument to what I once was? 
Is there nowhere a path to what it is I will become? 
Tell me, who am I that I must carry this weight? 
Tell me, who am I that I must need this strength? 

I’m chaotic and it’s beautiful, I’m ready to go 
You better fly, butterfly, in the scarlet and snow 
One, two, three, four, i’m getting ready to blow 
Tell your friends I’m heaven-sent and I’mma put on a show 

I’m doing it all at once and it’s such a mess 
But I know still I Am and I’m still heaven-sent 
I got some friends that been saying I been making slappers 
But what if rap thinks I’m a poser, man I started as an actor 
I'll flip the script like EJ, things are going off these days 
Got a huge menu, cheesecake, I’m a picky eater, God feed me 
Thirsty, so drink up so my heart don’t burn like reflux 
I know that I need love but I ain’t gonna find it up in the hub 
No, you know what I’m saying 
Triplet, triplet, triplet that be the flow that I’m slaying 
They ain’t gonna tell me the game that I’m playing’s amazing
cause they don’t know what I been saying, but 
Slow it down, then we go double time 
Everybody gonna love it when it get out of my mind 
But we ain’t there yet, gotta keep it quiet 
I’m heavensent, I’m the golden child, yeah 

Welcome to the mind of a madman 
I ain’t in a box, cause my name ain’t Matt and 
I ain’t tryna save the world, I’m just trying to rap and 
Help the people living in the dark night like Batman 
Trash rhymes, but I’m a raccoon 
Man I'm eating’em up like a meal at noon 
It got quite dark inside of my cocoon 
But fly, butterly, I’m about to zoom 
Double the pace until you finish the race 
I’m in the middle of the moment when I’m MIA 
But now I’m ready to rock, and I’m ready roll 
And this time I’m ready to run, I won’t stroll 
That which you must do, is what must be done 
And there’s no try, young padawan 
Man I kinda wanna work, kinda wanna have fun 
And I kinda wanna say I kinda wanna fall in love 
But I ain't really feeling like safe and sweet 
When think half the world’ll be hating me 
And I cope by living in make believe 
And I’m thinking I should go to therapy 

But it’s whatever, I’m sure I’m fine 
I don't need anyone poking in my mind 
Man I'll get it together, then I’ll be alright 
But maybe not, I don't know, lemme think and then write 
Nevertheless the present is always just a second-guess 
I’m wondering how long it’s gonna be before it’s definite 
I got a voice inside my head and I am trying to deafen it 
Cause I know that everything that it’s telling me’s a detriment 
And everybody telling me that I need to remember them 
And everybody wondering how I am gonna represent 
I’ll prolly make a mess of it, but I still got the medicine 
Cause though I am maleficent, you better know I’m– 

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