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See I went and took a break and it broke me and though they told me 
They were safe, I doubted it so I dipped, go ask my homies 
I don’t got many of those and I don’t got any hoes 
So if you think that I do, it’s obvious that you don’t know me 
And God ain’t gonna hold me cause I ain’t been acting holy 
I’d rather say that I’m paralyzed than fake it like a phony 
Yeah the winter was weird, but let’s look at last year 
The summer was chaotic, I stained pillows with tears 
Like if “I can make to August then I’ll be fine” 
Who knew in February I’d be losing my mind 
The facade of the golden child was starting to crack 
I tried to put it back together but I ended up trapped 
Dropped my pen and couldn’t find it til an hour ago, yeah 
COVID made me realize that I’m out of control 
I found my clarity with logic I ain’t doubting no more 
I’m confident that writer’s block’s a cop out, it’s time to pour 
All my feelings on the page and let the people react 
There’s wall that I can see through that’s been holding me back 
So I’ll punch it til it cracks or until I collapse 
Or until the first second of eternity’s passed, yeah 
That’s a little joke for the of three of you that get it 
I don’t need the royalties if my name is up in the credits 
Yeah this is day twelve of the rest of my life 
I’m gonna take all of what is offered and then let it suffice

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This is taking a while, I’m on the search for the sound 
I see a path to the city but it’s the long way around 
So I guess I’ll take the extra time to sharpen my blade 
So I’ll be ready for the fight that might lead to my grave 
Yeah it’s the king and the legend, just like the head and the heel 
That’s a deep cut, might take a while to heal 
But I got like twelve years til I gotta tackle that 
Maybe then I’ll be able to say I’ve got battle axe 
Who is who I don’t know, what’s the scarlet in the snow? 
Yeah I talk a big game but I don’t got a lot to show 
So, I’ma stay quiet while I’m finding my zone 
Till I’m lethal with the craft and I’m ready to blow 
Man I’m looking around and it’s clear we going up 
When I look at the game, it’s clear that y’all don’t know much, no 
So I’ma make it simple, they just like, no, they don’t love 
I’ll take a snub at the Grammys over twenty-four Doves 
Controversial? maybe, I ain’t been worshipping lately 
Cause a lot of Christian art is more wack than saintly 
And y’all wanna hate Hollyn for making a pop record 
But y’all don’t see that CCM could be a lot better 
If it ain’t broke then don’t fix it, yeah they ain’t broke, all the digits 
Are going up by the minute, is it a ministry or business? 
It’s really hard to say, so I’ll take it day-by-day 
Taking shots at all the sacred cows and recording  the rage, yeah 
Don’t know what my problem is, but I ain’t tryna solve it 
And I’ve never had an ex, so why are they appalled 
At the fact that I keep all the doors wide open 
How am I supposed to know which one’ll lead me to betrothal? 
“No that don’t make much sense, Stu” well neither do you 
Out here staying in school for a degree that you don’t even wanna use 
And I’d ask you what you wanna do, but you prolly don’t know, yeah 
That’s a worn-out story cause that’s always how it goes, man 
Take it back to the old raps 
Second Life up to PartDeux, yeah I hold that 
As the best time in my career, with the flows trash 
And on those GarageBand beats, man I didn’t hold back 
Looking for the energy I had back in Paint 
Cause it all seemed to disappear after I made Wait 
Time to turn the Lights Out and just float in my space 
Till I’m ready to explode, till I need to create 
It feels good to be back with the pen, yeah 
I didn’t know if I would be here again 
There’s a lot on my heart and even more in my head 
But we’ll have to wait til September cause it’s almost ten 

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No tell me what’s happenin when you step inside my skin 
Let’s switch it up for a day, and lemme know if you win 
It’s funny, I wouldn’t wanna be you and you wouldn’t wanna be me 
We gotta pay our own dues and chase our own dreams 
Nightmares up in everyone’s head, yeah 
No all the night terrors got you waking up dead 
No the phantoms can’t hang but they do like to float, yeah 
And you’ll float too, if you try to get your boat, so 
Imma get my bag and I’ll just leave it at that 
Man I’m working til “I want” turns into “I have” 
Yeah I’m working till I’m proud of every melody and rap 
Pay attention to the order there’s a lesson in that 
I’m tryna learn all of those so I can know that I’m grown 
Way before I propose and make somebody my home, yeah 
Cause right now I ain’t trust myself with fame and the road 
Cause see I know exactly who I am at night, alone 
I was a real good kid, but then that kid grew up 
Teardrops and balloons, I was just moving down and up 
Back and forth, back and forth, yeah, I just keep going 
Back and forth, back and forth, I’ll be better in the morning 
With the sunshine on my face and my fingertips 
Yeah I’m praying while I’m working that my shadow self won’t linger 
It’s important that I got him but I gotta give him limits 
Cause otherwise I know that he gon’ ruin my business 
And we can’t have that, I’m too important, in fact 
No I don’t think that I’ll cap with 2034 raps, yeah 
No it’s a long story so you’ll have to run it back 
The moment he leaves Tutera with a brand new tat, no 
Yo gimme twelve years and it’ll start to make sense, yeah 
And gimme ten days and I’ll better my best 
No this for sure ain’t it, cause I’m just tryna write and spit 
Pay attention to the mix, it ain’t my time to make hits, yeah 
I gotta get to work now, i’m working so much I’m burnt out 
I’m burning what I am learning so I can see what’ll turn me 
Into the man that I think I need to be for myself, yeah 
Or is it for her? man it’s really hard to tell 

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Sit down, strap in, finna get wild 
Now I see that it’s been coming for me since I was a child 
Ready ready ready ready ready ready 
They didn’t give me a couple suitcases 
Guess they thought they were too heavy 
So I never passed go, I never hopped on my flight 
They didn’t understand why I was just floating at night 
Had to learn articulation just so I could get heard 
Cause ain’t nobody gonna listen when you got too many words 
It’s the, curious case of Stuart Narrowgate Clark, cause 
He don’t love God, no more he only his loves art, now 
If you really feeling it that strongly in your heart 
And you don’t know what to do, I’ll tell you where to start 
And I should probably tell you chastising drives me out 
It’s like drinking vinegar in the middle of a drought 
But I won’t say no more, I’ll let you figure it out 
Yeah, yeah, nah, figure it out 

Put me in a ten-by-ten-by-ten with a mic and camera 
I’ll come out guns-a-blazing like my name is Poe Dameron 
Though my mind is going off the cliff, I’ll bring bars for days 
Please pardon my ways while I’m in my darkest of days 
My faith got lost in my brain, my head got lost in the rain 
My face got lost in the grain, I’m lost and looking for my name 
I’m lost and looking for my baby among these goddesses, maybe 
They’ll give me a chance if I quit acting so crazy 
Nah, we could have it all if I just got myself together 
But the question is, will my adoration become a fetter? 
I’m not a better but I’d but money on the thought that I’d be better 
Waiting for the one who wants to know my deserts 
But honestly it’s all just a cherry on top 
Cause it’s more necessary that I got the game on lock, nah 
Don’t misunderstand, I still wanna feed the flock 
But I ain’t gon die til I see the denouement, nah 

I been tryna wake up at 4:20 every day 
It ain’t even a thing, man I’m just tryna get paid 
Cause I gotta pay Burnham, and then Comcast, then Duke 
And the Spotify check is like a bullet, not a nuke 
I’m prepping for a fallout with some people that I know 
Cause I went left and they went right at the fork in the road 
Which I suppose makes me wrong, so nothing much has changed 
So I’m chained by a rope to the bed-frame in my brain 
Baby look at what you done to me, I just wanna be running free 
I know it wasn’t suddenly, it was all growing underneath 
Cause you don’t kill the roots when you nip it in the bud 
You gotta dig to uncover where it’s all coming from, yeah 
Starts at the core, which of course you can ignore 
Then wonder what the happened when he ain’t your golden child any 
More more more more more is what you want, right? 
It’s crazy when zero is better than ninety-nine, cause it’s 
All or nothing, better not be lukewarm 
Better have it all in order to be cool with the Lord 
No Jesus, oh Jesus, I ain’t ask for all this 
But I’ll wait cause you already made it on the tracklist, yeah 
Practice makes perfect, that’s what they say, right? 
But it was all the practicing that pushed me away 
So everyone can chat it up about how Stuart’s gone astray 
But Clark’s doing fine, and I think he’s on his way 

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